As evidenced by the ticker on the right side-bar of my blog, Bryan and I have officially experienced 1 year of waiting since being logged-in with China’s adoption program.
I’ve been thinking about today’s arrival for the past 2 months with dread. This one-year anniversary just represents the time we have waited after being logged-in. There was also the paperchase time, years of trying to conceive, and a couple instances of domestic adoption that were never realized for various reasons. I hate feeling sorry for myself, but I must allow myself to be sad sometimes.
I have to repeatedly remind myself that I will become a mom, no matter how hard it is to believe. One day, Bryan and I will travel to China and finally become parents. I believe in fate and believe we’re already connected to a particular child. I'll wait forever (if I must) to welcome that child into our lives.